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Monday, August 31, 2009

"This World Can Turn Me Down But I Won’t Turn Away & I Won’t Duck & Run, Cause I'm Not Built That Way"

Title: 3DD- "Duck & Run"

This has been the Monday I've least looked forward to for over 100 days now. This Monday is my last day of freedom, last day of no worrying. Tomorrow, reality sets back in and I'm back to school. Yuck. I don't think I've expressed my distaste for college. Honestly, I find half of it a waste of my time. Taking classes that have nothing to do with my major or reviewing things I've learned over and over since the beginning of High School (algebra anyone!?). I despise any teacher that requires attendance. Honestly, they are getting paid if I am there or not so I do not find it any of their concern. It drives me nuts. If I fail, it is my problem. My first semester in college I took an introductory course to English. It was stupid and I learned nothing in this class. True story: Someone raised their hand and asked "Do you always capitalize "I"?" Seriously?! I find it ridiculous that I paid to relearn something I learned in grade school. I missed 6 of these English classes. I aced every paper. Every. Frickin'. Paper. Guess what my final grade was? C. All because I missed all those classes. Not because I missed assignments during those periods, but because I wasn't there. Blah. Rant over.

Anywho, back to the current time. I'm not looking forward to going back. I'm taking 6 classes this semester on top of working. At least I am only working part time this semester. I'll miss the money, but I need to concentrate on school too.

I don't think I ever wrote about my major. It's Psychology, with a minor in Criminal Justice. I like it, getting inside people's brains is fun. ;)

My goal is to become a Victim Assistance Counselor. I did a mentoring program the summer after my sophomore year in H.S. and fell in love helping people out and being there for them. It was a eye-opening summer.

Biggest fear with this career path? That I won't be able to remove myself from their problems. I worry, about everything. I like to fix everything for everyone. I hate seeing people in pain and do what I can to shield them. I'm afraid I won't be able to separate my work from my home life. I'm scared I'll bring home everything with me. *Sigh*

Well, if I can't handle it, I plan on becoming a psychology professor. I originally wanted to be a teacher, until I did a mentoring program with my geometry teacher in H.S. I hate public speaking. I had people in that class that wouldn't listen to me because I was the same age/younger than them and I think it bruised their ego. It sucked and I hated that feeling. One of the kids told me to my face he'd never accept help from me. This same guy I liked 2 years earlier, who let me use his sweatshirt in class when I was cold, who passed me notes and told me he liked me, who found out later that day a girl in a higher grade liked him and went out with her, who wrote in my yearbook that year, "I smater then you in world cultures." Waste of my time, Check. Cute as all get out, Check. Seen him since H.S., negative and it's for the better.

I'm babbling about random past stories and I really just wanted to write how I didn't want to go back to school tomorrow. Haha, I obviously shouldn't let my mind wander.

I'm off to spend the last completely free evening with my niece, who will make me smile and make this sick feeling in my stomach disappear until she leaves. Then the anxiety will creep up and I won't sleep tonight. Anxiety issues rule!... not.

x0x0x

Saturday, August 29, 2009

"Through Timeless Words & Priceless Pictures"

Title: Jason Mraz - "A Beautiful Mess"

Google Survey

Rules: Answer the questions below.
Take each answer and type it into Google.
Take a picture from the first page of results and post.

1. The age I will be this coming birthday.


23

2. A place I’d like to travel or go to.


Italy

3. My favorite place.


The Beach

4. My favorite food.

Caramel

5. My favorite animal.


Siberian Tiger Cubs

6. My favorite color.


Pink & Black

7. First name of my significant other.


Vito <3

8. The town/city on which you live/grew up.


York

9. My screen/nickname.


VT

10. My first job.


Selling produce at a Farmer's Market for my best friend's family

11. My bad habit.


Worrying, about everything

12. My worst fear.


Being Alone

Friday, August 28, 2009

Happy Friday!!


So I don't really have anything witty to write about today, so I leave you with some gorgeous eye candy. Enjoy, I am! 8)

Thursday, August 27, 2009

"Just Like A Tattoo, I'll Always Have You"

Title: Jordan Sparx "Tattoo" FYI-I hate that song but I couldn't think of anything else special.

So all this talk about tattoo, I figured I should post a pic of my current tat. It's not a good quality pic, it was taken right after it was done. This is mine, right above my right ankle:
So since many of you have tats too, what do you girlies have and where?

Quote!

"I Have You Breathing Down My Neck & I Don't Know What You Could Possibly Expect Under This Condition"

Title: "Dark Blue" - Jack's Mannequin

Over 2 years ago for my 20th birthday, my sister took me to get a tattoo. I had always wanted one but I am deathly afraid of needles. I still whine and go into panic when I have to get shots at the Dr's office. I was the kid that needed all the nurses plus her mom to hold her down just to have the Dr give me a shot. I Hate Needles.

I went with my sister when I was 16 to watch her get her first tattoo. It took hours but it was gorgeous. I finally agreed for my 20th birthday we would both go and get them done. To say that I was scared would but a misunderstanding. I paced the floor waiting for the guy to get set up. I was horrified. The guy's wife was there for a few mins and asked where I was getting mine. I told her and she proceeded to tell me good luck, it really hurts there. WONDERFUL. I fortunately have too much of an ego to back out.

My sister went first and got a little flowered piece with my niece's initials in the vines. It took 30mins. It was small but cute. She was unphased by the needles. When it was my turn, the world started to get dizzy but I laid down with a magazine in front of me and my sister's hand in mine. I ended up getting a heart with a pin k rose on the side of it above my ankle. I made it through the torturous 50mins. It sucked, seriously. If they tell you tattoos do not hurt, they are LYING TO YOU!

Half way through the process, Vito, my brother in law K, and my niece show up to meet us for dinner. It may have been good because even though at one point I wanted to cry because he hit something that shot pain up my leg, my niece, whose was then 3, would have flipped out. I just picture her running over and hitting him screaming "Stop hurting my Essa!" Anywho, I made it through, I loved my new tattoo, and I swore I would never get one again.

Here we are 2 years later and I have the urge to get inked again. Stupid right? I hated it right? Ugh... Why would I be stupid enough to put myself through needles again willingly?! I don't have a sound answer. I like the aftermath. I love my tattoo still and I am ready for a new one. I'm been contemplating it for a few months now and I am not quite sure what I want yet. I have a few images in my mind but I am not very artistic when it comes to drawing unfortunately. I am going to sit down with Vito's best friend, M (he's AMAZING and SUPER talented) and see if I can have him sketch it out by my description.

So to the point of this long entry (I really do have one! Promise!) I sat down to talk to Vito about it last night and well, to put it mildly, he flipped. He doesn't like tattoos or piercings. He said he thinks one is enough for me and I shouldn't get something else just because I want it. He thinks there should be a greater reason behind it. I struggle with this because I do not believe people need elaborate explanations for inking themselves up. Now that being said, I would never just put a random design on me just because.

So we argued that he wants a better reasoning behind getting a new tattoo. I find my reasoning of wanting it and knowing I'll have it for the rest of my life good enough. I struggle with letting him have an opinion because I do plan on marrying him, he will see it everyday and I want him to like it on me too. But on the other side, it is my body. 4 years ago I was handed over my own rights to my body to do with what I please when I turned 18.

After arguing for what seemed like forever, I told him we would revisit this situation if I could even get the design I want. Then I would sit down and talk to him in more depth of what the tattoo represents to me and why it means a lot to have it part of myself. He was not happy, he wanted answers now but I do not have it. It's a crappy situation and I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place. Ugh!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

"Stories Will Be Told Until The End Of Time"

Vito has been known to describe me as stubborn and opinionated. Who me? Stubborn? Opinionated? Check. Check. Some may look at these as flaws. Me? Nah, I embrace them.I like to look at it as knowing what I believe and sticking to it.

So, as one of my daily weekday rituals, I read the news. This includes the local news and then msnbc. Today while reading I was just annoyed at some of the topics that are covered every day. I thought about not posting this, but this is a blog. I apologize if I offend you and if you find these things interesting.. Anywho..

1.) Michael Jackson.

Seriously. How many months ago did this man die?! I don't know because it has been in the news EVERY FLIPPING DAY SINCE. Okay, he died. That's sad. He was a music icon who allegedly molested children for God's sake. Why are we mourning him like he is Jesus? Even if my favorite celebrities were to tragically die tomorrow, I would not be flying across the country and cry at his memorial. I wouldn't cry. Anwho, I'm just tired of hearing about him and his family. Let it rest, let them rest.

2.) Swine Flu

Schools are/were shutting down over cases of the flu. The flu? Is this not what we get every year? Do we not survive? So it's a new strain. It killed people, and that is horrible. But the regular flu kills people too, a lot more people, and we are not shutting down everything because someone sneezed. I don't get it. The guy who played Ron Weasley has the Swine Flu, said it was just like every other flu and survived. If Ron isn't worried, neither am I.

3.) Politics/Health Care/Obama

I'll just lump these all together. I don't really like politics. Everyone has their own opinions, and as previously stated so do I and I stick to them. I also do not believe Obama is the coolest thing since sliced bread. I do not want to open the news to find out what his wife is wearing today, where they ordered pizza from, and what kind of dog they get. How is this news??!

4.) Chris Brown

This made the local newspaper. It's not local. He beat his woman. More than once. It's news and now he gets probation. Don't worry, as long as you are famous, beat whomever you want and you will only get a slap on a wrist, Fabulous.


These are just things bothering me today. I'm grumpy if you can't tell. Last week's crappyness didn't get any better. I ended up at the Dr's being put on some strong antibiotics and pain meds to get rid of a sinus infection and migraine. Vito scrapped his car into another car on Saturday so he's in a wonderful mood now. Not.

TMI warning! TMI warning!

It's that time of the month and because of this stupid pain medication, I can't take anything that may contain aspirin so my cramps are uncontrollable right now. I contemplated crawling under my desk for awhile but I think they'd notice. Boo.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Happy Monday!

I got this forward in my email today and died laughing. Seriously, it's long but SO worth the read! I bolded my favs, in case you wondered. 8)


Random Thoughts of the Day:


+I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

+More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves me.

+Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

+I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they've invented the lighter?

+Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

+I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

+The letters T and G are very close to each other on a keyboard. This recently became all too apparent to me and consequently I will never be ending a work email with the phrase "Regards" again.

+Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.

+There is a great need for sarcasm font.

+Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the fck was going on when I first saw it.

+I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it.

+How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

+I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

+I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

+The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.

+A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

+Was learning cursive really necessary?

+Lol has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".

+I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

+Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.

+My brother's Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, "Cuz we beat you, and you hate us." Classy, bro.

+Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart", all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

+How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?

+Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in' examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and said "Yes that's G as in...(10 second lapse)..ummm...Goonies"

+What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

+While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.

+MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

+Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

+I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.

+Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

+I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

+Bad decisions make good stories

+Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if I do!

+Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

+If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.

+Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be a problem....

+You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

+Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't want to have to restart my collection.

+There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

+I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

+"Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

+I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There's so much pressure. 'I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren't watching this. It's only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'

+I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Damnit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

+I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

+When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.

+I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

+Why is a school zone 15 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles...

+As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

+Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

+It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

+I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

+I think that if, years down the road when I'm trying to have a kid, I find out that I'm sterile, most of my disappointment will stem from the fact that I was not aware of my condition in college.

+Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn't know what do to with it.

+Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time...

+My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day "Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?" How the hell do I respond to that?

+It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.

+I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

+I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

+I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.

+The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimate d that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There's nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I Left A Note And Said I'm Sorry I've Had A Bad Day Again

So this week, in short, sucks nuts.

First my brother-in-law got into an accident Monday morning. He's okay, the other person is okay, his car... well.. not so much. I just keep reminding myself that cars are replaceable, people are not.

I chipped a tooth and despise my dentist so I'm frantically looking around this week to find one that takes me insurance.. easier said than done.

Woke up in the middle of last night with the worst headache I've had in my entire life. I cried a lot, felt nauseous, and wished for a hammer to beat my head in. I'm convinced it would have felt better than the pounding. I stayed home from work and slept most of the day with my cat.

Vito's last day from the bank is next Saturday. After that, he is officially jobless. His first plan and not his backup plan for jobs have fallen through. I know he's freaking out on the inside, but since I don't feel well, he's slapping a smile on his face for me. Now he's at the store picking up food to make for dinner, bless his heart.

I know things will get better. Sometimes trusting in God is a lot easier said than done. Hears to hoping this week will get better.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Boo

I'm having a bad Monday, but instead of whining about it, I'll post something I found on LTT today that made me giggle. Enjoy!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Friends Are The Angels That Help You Fly

Know what you get when you combine:

Me

plus

Vito's Best Friend, M

plus

Vito??


An amazing night out with my 2 favorite men.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Movie Night


With any luck, I'll be going to see this tonight and I can't wait!!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

“For Everything You Have Missed, You Have Gained Something Else, And For Everything You Gain, You Lose Something Else.”


Title: Quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson

So I'm struggling to find something fun and interesting to talk about... Things keep popping into my head but nothing long enough... so today I'm going to post random thoughts/things I've learned this week.

-Big Brother is addicting. Even when you know what happens, it is still exciting to see idiots go off on each other for no apparent reason.

-Vito can, with the help of my recipe book and me laying out all the ingredients, make home made meatballs all by himself. I'm as proud as a parent at a PTA meeting.

-Yahoo is moving slower than snail mail and it is driving me bonkers.

-Drama does not go away after high school like I once thought and dreamed it would. Years later there will still be lies and hurtful words said. Luckily learning to rise above it has made things a lot easier.

-Cats (well Zoe Princess at least) do not like oreos for some strange reason.. but they do like cool whip!

-Comments on a blog can make my day. That being said, I vow to comment on 3 new blogs a week, hoping to make someone else's week better.

-The release date for New Moon is now down to double digit numbers, not triple!

-Wishing time would speed up so I can graduate college but wishing the weeks would slow down so summer does not end is counter-productive.

-Being nice to the lady at the Deli making your sub may just get you free cookies.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

The List

So over at Lauren's blog, she made a list of very sexy men. Here is my top 10 celebrity hotties of 09.

Chris Daughtry
He got robbed on American Idol. This man is a triple threat. He's not only gorg, but he can sing and play guitar. That makes him near perfect.

Chad Michael Murray
One Tree Hill is my favorite show. Not because Chad is in it, but it sure makes it better. He's total eye candy.

Robert BuckleyWell hello there, beautiful. From Lipstick Jungle, which unfortunately didn't last, now to join OTH. You should see his abs... mmm.

Robert Pattinson
There can't be a list without him, can there? Even in his awkwardness, something seduces me while staring at him.

Taylor Lautner
Now, I have been Team Edward from the beginning of those books... then I saw this gorgeous face. I may or may not have switched to team Switz. And in my world, he's totally legal.

Patrick Dempsey
McDreamy anyone? I'm feeling kind of sick and I think I need a doc, asap.

Matthew McConaughey
My fav movie is How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days. Him and Kate together is beautiful. He's beautiful. yummy!

Shemar Moore
This gorgeous man was in Mad Diary of a Black Woman. Awesome movie, sexy man. It's worth the watch.

Dave Annable
Brothers & Sisters cutest brother. He's scrumptious, hands down.

Zachary Hanson
I have liked Hanson since '96, I still like Hanson. I have always had a crush on Zac. Seriously, he ever shows up at my doorstep, I'm his. No questions asked. Don't hate on the Mmmbop!

Rough Morning


So there is something you should know about me.

Seriously, I'm a grump in the mornings. I hate waking up. I hate being woken up. I hate getting up. If I had my way, I'd sleep 12 hours a day. I'm the person who in the morning, you do not even bother trying to talk to. I will ignore you, words go through one ear and out the other. I will not answer if you ask me questions. I'm that horrible.

Now that being said, this morning sucked. Vito lives with me (save the living in sin business for someone else. If he didn't live with me, he'd probably be out on the streets because his family obviously doesn't care.. but that is a whole another issue and a whole chapter of posts.). Today on this glorious Wednesday, Vito had off of work. I was disturbed from my beauty sleep being slightly shaken and hearing "Vanessa? Vanessa wake up." What do you think my reaction was?

I sat straight up going "What?! What?! Am I Late?!?!" What do I get for a response? "No honey, just come here and cuddle with me."
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You. Seriously. Woke. Me. Up. To. CUDDLE?!

This is the point where I start mumbling obscenities that he probably couldn't understand, turn over and go back to sleep as he tries to cuddle up to me. Fine, this would be fine... if only this man could lay still for any extended period of time. I got so agitated I started to count the seconds in-between his movements. Want to know the longest amount of time? 17 flipping seconds. I got tired of it and finally sat up and and asked him what his deal was. His response? "I thought we could spend some time together." At 7? In the morning? Before I'm suppose to be awake?

I tell him to get out of bed so I can go back to sleep and then what do I hear? My alarm. Ugh. Talk about a rough morning...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Preview


In case anyone wondered, November can not come fast enough!!!!

A Little Debbie Death Match

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Le Love


Friday, August 7, 2009

Why Not Learn To Enjoy The Little Things? There Are So Many Of Them!

This weekend is quite busy. Tonight Vito & I are having our date night. Dinner? Shopping? Lounging around the house? Who knows... as long as I spend time with him, that is all that matter.

Tomorrow we have 2 cookouts to go to. One is a Luau at my sister's house and the other is a Fiesta at his co-worker's house. Festive right? Haha. I need to find something to wear to the Luau, we are suppose to dress up.

Sunday we are doing a double lunch date at Olive Garden for my fav, soup salad and breadsticks! MmmMmmMmm. Then off to a wonderful, bonding long and boring family reunion. Oh goody..

Things I want to do this weekend but will probably not find time to?

-Decorate my blog, since I just figured out how to do it. Hehe.
-Go buy new books to read

xoxox

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Happy Friday!

Those who lose dreaming are lost.

Nothing is worth more than this day.

Some people look at the world and say "Why?" Other people look at the world and say "Why not?"

Not everything that can be counted counts and not everything that counts can be counted.

Live your beliefs and you can turn the world around.

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen nor touched but are felt in the heart.

The grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

Throw your heart out in front of you and run ahead to catch it.

Let me not pray to be sheltered from danger, but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it.

Just some quotes I've been collecting. They make me smile (The last one is one of my favs!). 8)

xoxox

Uhmm....

WTF? Seriously? WTF?
And that's all I have to say about that....

xoxox

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

California, California, Here We Come!

As someone wonderfully pointed out on my FB, 6 years ago today, The OC debuted its first episode. I happen to LOVE this show. I wish they never took it off the air (well really I wish Marissa wasn't killed off and they stayed on the air). Loved it.

As a certain someone said to me, Happy Birthday OC!

Wish Wednesday

I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty bummed out today. Blah...

In less than 4 weeks, school is resume and back Vito & I will go. Now up until now (since he's been going to college back home) he has been working full time and going to school part time. This semester is the first semester he was able to receive loans to go full time at school. This means he will no longer be able to work full time.

Simple right?

So last month a business customer approached him to have lunch with him Vito obliged. During this time, they talked of him working there part time while he went to school.

Great right?

So he decided he would leave one week in between quitting his job and starting school to give full attention for any training he would need. He emailed the business owner 2 weeks ago and asked to sit down and work out a set schedule and everything. He emailed back saying he was on his way out of town and would email him the next week (last week) to speak about it. Never heard from him. Vito emailed him last night to see what was going on and he received an email this morning saying they are waiting for a contract to be signed and the position would not be available until October/November, but he'd keep him in mind.

Sucky right?

Ugh. I'm more upset now because Vito does not do well with change and now he will stress out not knowing what to do. I'm sad that he'll probably have to get a stupid job that'll take up his evenings and weekends and he won't enjoy it. I won't enjoy it because I only have evenings and weekends. Blah. Some Most days I wonder why things aren't easier.

My wish for today would be for Vito to find a job he enjoys, even if that means sacrificing his evenings and weekends. I just want him to be happy...

Right.

xoxox

Mermaid or Whale?

I recieved this in my email this morning. Its cutie!

Recently, in a large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin and tanned woman appeared in the window of a gym... It said:

¨THIS SUMMER DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID, OR A WHALE?¨

A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern:

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea-lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life; they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins -stuffing themselves with shrimp and other delicacies of the sea. They play and swim in the oceans, seeing exotic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia.. Whales are excellent singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.

Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of psychoanalysts due to an identity crisis. Fish or human? Human or fish? They can't have a sex life, because they kill the men they lure close to them. Therefore, they can't experience the joys of motherhood. They are purported to be exceedingly vain and capricious. Not only that, who wants to be near a girl who smells like a fish store?

The choice is perfectly clear to me; I want to be a whale.

P.S: We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who still makes me shiver and a coffee with my friends. With time, we gain weight, because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that, when there is no more room, it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So, we aren't heavy; we are enormously cultured, educated and happy.
Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror, I will think, "Good gosh! Look how smart I am".


P.S. I'm a super smart whale! ;)

xoxox