"And Though My Edges May Be Rough, I Never Feel I'm Quite Enough, It May Not Seem Like Very Much But I'm Yours..."

Title: The Script - "I'm Yours"

2005

5 years ago today you could have told me my whole life was about to change and I would have never believed you.

5 years ago, I was a young 17 year old who was anxiously preparing to leave for my senior music trip to Florida to venture on a cruise to the Bahamas and spend time in Universal Studios. At that point, my biggest worry was being that far away from home for the first time.

5 years ago today a young boy showed up at my house, a dozen pink tipped white roses in hand, and spent the evening with me. We talked, we sang, we held hands, and we started the beginnings to a beautiful relationship that neither of us knew would be in store.

2006

4 years ago today we dressed up in fancy clothes and you took me out to the nicest restaurant I'd ever been to.

4 years ago today you took me to the top of the city and we overlooked all the lights and enjoyed life being easy.

4 years ago today we celebrated falling in love and surviving one whole year together and wished for more.

2007

3 years ago today I sat at home missing the man who held my heart while was away in Florida for a year.

3 years ago, I was learning that absence is not for the weak. That being away from each other for a year was one of the hardest things either of us had to do but it made our relationship grow stronger and our love became even more infinite.

3 years ago today we reminisced of our first night of our relationship, looking at the stars knowing we'd be together again soon.

2008

2 years ago today we found our new anniversary ritual, visiting the Melting Pot.

2 years ago we learned that when life was tough, we bonded together.

2 years ago, we realized how deep our love ran and that no matter what came against us, we'd make it.

2009

1 year ago today we enjoyed a night away at the harbor, eating delicious food and loving each other even though it was raining.

1 year ago today we laughed that we had made it the length of high school and reminded ourselves how stupid others were in doubting our relationship because we were young and high school sweethearts.

1 year ago to grow together as people individually and as a couple as we continue our journey in life together.

2010

Today we celebrate our 5 year anniversary.

Today I celebrate the love that has grown in me deeper than I could have ever imagined.

Today I love this man more than I did 5 years ago, but less than I will 5 years/25 years/ or even 70 years from now.

Get Healthy: Tool Number 1

Last week I discussed my weight adventures. I wanted to touch on the tools I am using to try to become a healthier me, one that I like too!

First tool: The gym a.k.a the devil's home on earth.

This is something new for me to get into a routine to go to the gym. As a college student, I have a free gym membership to a GORGEOUS gym. This place has a pool, indoor racquet ball, rock climbing walls, in door track, and a weight room over looking the soccer field/ track. Since Vito can go too, this was been our friend this past 2 weeks. Last week we managed to make it there twice, this week it is 3 times. Pretty good don't you think?

My routine at the gym starts with this piece right here.

Guaranteed to make you sweat bullets. I'm up to 20mins on this baby. After the elliptical, I spend 30-40 mins doing weights focusing on abs, arms, and legs with Vito. He's like my trainer. I may or may not have referred to him as the devil himself a time or 2 or 32498. After that I head back to do more cardio for 10-20 mins either on the bike or treadmill,

After I'm done, I'm huffing and puffing and sweaty and smell gross. But at the end of the day, I feel better, I sleep better, and he is proud of me. So am I. Now in the morning when I wake up stiff and it hurts to walk, that is another story. 8)

"Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me"

Title: Pink- "Don't Let Me Get Me"

Hate, such a strong word, but it fits exactly how I feel a

bout this contraption made by the one and only Devil himself.

I'm convinced no one but the devil would make such a torturous device. Now I've never been tiny and skinny or any of those body types that the world seems to glorify. I have curves, lots of them... too many of them. I've always been proud to never be a skinny mini but I could shake it like one. Haha.

(Please excuse horrible picture, I'm trying to motivate myself by posting this. Ugh, PUKE!)

I'm unhealthy when it comes down to it. I like food, a lot more than I like exercise. Not good for you food. Food that is covered in cheese or chocolate or salt or caramel. I'm unhappy with myself. I've gotten to the point where looking in the mirror, I do not like to see the reflection. I am not proud of what has happened to my body. Vito, that blessed man, tells me every day that I am beautiful. He loves my body and I despise it, quite a conundrum isn't it?

With the help of Vito, I'm attempting to lose weight again. It's hard, most days it sucks but it is what needs to be done. I'll get into the different ways I'm attempting it at a later date.

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Bring me flowers and talk for hours, I like you, and ohh I like how you make me feel

-Since I'm pretty bad at coming up with titles, I'll either use quotes (which most of the times I do not know the authors for because I collected them YEARS ago sorry) or music lyrics. Enjoy!

-Song Lyric: Hope- "Bring Me Flowers"

Since I introduced myself, I decided I should work on introducing some of the other important people in my life. This post I'll dedicate to my other half, my better half.

What can I say, it's the big ears that had me at hello. Just kidding, Though Mickey is SO fine (so fine he blows my mind ;) , that handsome man to the right has my heart. Vito & I have been dating since April 05', meaning we're working on year 5 already. 5 years? Seriously, that seems like an eternity, but seems like only yesterday.

I meet Vito waaaaay back in August 04' at a mutual friend's birthday party. Lucky me, I was the only girl at said sleep over. Works to s girl's advantage having a man for a best friend, huh? ;) First conversation I ever had with Vito was in the middle of the night, I was sleeping on the floor with my special friend at the time ex (he's another story) and I turned over and I heard "You know, you should never sleep with gum in your mouth. You'll end up with it in your hair." I proceeded to tell him I was too tired to get up so he got me something to spit my gum out in so I did not have to and threw it out for me. He has always taken care of me. <3>

I continued my on again/off again relationship (Read: special friendness) with said ex for a few more months. Suddenly Vito and best friend started to hang out at my house after their band practices. It was fun, I happened to like to flirt with him. All the while, I'm getting ready to go on a music trip (I was a chorus girl! Woot woot!), Vito told me he'd come see me before I left. I was nervous since I had never been alone with him before! The night before I left for my trip, this wonderful man showed up at my door step with a dozen white with pink tipped roses(Pink=fav color which I never told him). This was the first time anyone had brought me flowers. This was the last day of my single life and the first day of our relationship.

If You Can Make A Girl Laugh, You Can Make Her Do Anything

I figured since I read so many blogs, why not attempt to write one too! It'd make me feel better commenting or something. Well, I hate starting out with first posts. Hi, it's me, Vanessa and I'm going to start a blog so I can ramble about random things. Sounds like fun right? Right. Here's a few things about me..

I'm 22.
I'm going to be a junior in college this fall semester (I'm taking the extended route to college) and I hate it with a strong passion enjoy it.
I work full time during the summer and part time during the school year as a secretary with all men.
I'm in love with Google Reader.
Traveling is my passion.
I have the best boyfriend in the world, whole I'll often complain about, but love with all my heart.
I heart pictures, and you will probably not see a post without them whether I took them or linked them from someone who has talent. 8)

I have plenty other random things to say about myself, because I'm pretty random (at least that is what I am told) but I'll save that for other posts to elaborate on. Anywho, I'm done with this post. Please see this silly gorgeous picture of myself with my hands in Harry Potter's, and yes I'm counting down the days until the movie! Woot Woot!

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