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Dear November, Hurry up!!!!!

I just died.



Who else is excited?!

"Surely You Know That Everything That Exists Imagined Itself Into Existence."

Title: Quote from True Blood

Hello Summer, it is nice to see you again. I'm completely at a loss for how it came to be summer already. Didn't I JUST get out of classes? The older I get, the faster time seems to go. I'm still trying to decide whether that is a good thing or a bad thing.

In the TV world, summer signals the end of many of the popular shows that I waste my time enjoy watching. Usually at the end of the season, I get sad. All those stupid cliff hangers I happen to love so much.

It doesn't take long for me to replace those shows with summer shows!

My favorite summer time show to watch is True Blood.

I've read the books, I love them. I also love the show. It's pretty flippin' hilarious.

Blood bisque infused with rose pedals, anyone?

Well and my favorite reason to watch the show? Rather than tell you, I'll show you because my words will not do it justice. Ladies, feast your eyes on this. You can thank me later.

Onto another show that I get sucked into every year which is utterly ridiculous but I can't help myself.

Big Brother.

All the drama, it sucks me in every.flippin'.summer. I can't help myself. It never fails to entertain me.

Another show that is new this year had me at the first episode.

Pretty Little Liars

This show is one big mystery. So many questions, so little answers. I get angry at the end of every episode because they never give me enough. They leave me wanting more every time.

And lastly, a show Vito & I found On Demand and just finished up the first season last night.

Weeds.

This show is flippin' hilarious. It never fails to make me laugh. Talk about dysfunction at its finest. I believe there are 5 seasons out so I'm looking forward to the rest of them now too!

What summer shows are you watching?

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"When Words Meet Heartbeats"

Title: Parachute Band

Dear Blog readers,

First, it has been way to long since I did mail time around this blog, so I am here to fix that problem.

Second, thank you for all the support on my road to a healthier lifestyle & also for all the kick-butt music suggestions.

Third, I love you all, something fierce.

Always,

Me

Dear Mommy,

I love how people always say, "As grow older, you'll realize your parent was right all along" kinda thing. See here is the problem. You lied. Remember when you always told me growing up, "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." ? Lies, Mommy, lies. I've yet to have a broken bone but lately words have been making cracks on my heart. Why couldn't you have lied about the "Life isn't fair" saying? I would have appreciated that more.

Love you,

Your favorite daughter.

Dear hateful people,

The fact that you take time out of your "oh-so-important life" to try and bring me down is pitiful. You are suppose to be the older and wiser adults, maybe it is time for you to grow up. Your words hurt but instead of responding with more hateful words, please watch me take the high road and maybe one day you can follow.. I feel sorry for you more than anything. I hope one day God opens your eyes. And I hope you can find true love too. Until then, I'll continue to pray and love this man more than anything for the rest of my life.

Respectfully,

The "controlling girlfriend who only has a boyfriend out of obligation"

Dear tears,

We've been spending a lot of time together lately. Both traitor tears and sad tears. I think it's time we let go and take a break from each other. Also, please feel to take anxiety with you so you aren't lonely.

Thanks for being there to wash my soul when no one else could.

Until the next time,

The blubbering, anxiety-filled girl

Dear Sales person,

When I call and tell you how your company screwed up my order, do NOT talk down to me and treat me like I have no idea what I'm talking about because I am a woman. I hope my boss pulls our account from your company, you deserve to lose our business.

Infuriated,

The one with boobs AND a brain.

Dear new iPhone,

I want you.

That is all.

Love,

The one with covets

Dear Gym,

We've been spending a lot of time together recently. I'm pretty convinced you are trying to kill me. Or the fat. One of us must go & I think you know which one I prefer.

Signed,

Sore

P.S. Please stop showing Wendy's Frosty commercials while I'm working my butt off, okay?

Dear Vampire Eric,

It is about time you showed back up in my life.

I may or may not have drooled on Sunday night.

Love me through it.

Love and hugs and kisses and....

Me

Dear Friday,

Hurry up.

Love,

Always-Anxious-For-Your-Arrival

Happy Thursday!

Do y'all know Amanda? If not, you should you immediately.

If you do nothing else today, please go read this amazing post she wrote. This girl writes beautifully & I think we all need to hear this message!!!

Happy Thursday!

XoXoX

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Please love this as much as I did when I found it over at Sara's blog.

"Music is an outburst of the soul"

Title: Quote by Frederick Delius

First off let me thank you all for your sweet words, encouragement, and love that poured into my comment section and inbox. The blog world never ceases to amaze me and I appreciate every single word y'all took time to write to me. Words can not express what they meant to me.

So I've successfully went to the gym twice last week and did some cardio (Elliptical and Stationary bike). I brought my gym clothes along and plan to get right back at it tonight after work.

So let's talk music.

I don't know about you, but cardio=death. I'm pretty much hate it while I'm doing it. All that sweat and breathing heavy, not for me. So in order to survive, I need distractions. I go to the gym at my college. Let's just say it is gorgeous and the best part of the college. It was just built recently and it is HUGE. Indoor pool,rock climbing wall, basketball courts, racquetball courts, and track. The fitness center overlooks the soccer field and outdoor track. It pretty much rocks.

Now each of the stationary bikes have their own TVs and the rest of the fitness equipment can tune into one of the 12 different TV's on the wall. I'm not a big TV watcher while exercising so this doesn't work best for me. I usually bring a book and my ipod to get me through. I have a "Work it!" playlist on my ipod just for working out. These songs range from pop songs that have a beat I can shake my booty too(Ex: Black Eyed Peas, Jet, Gaga, Pitbull) to rock songs that are angry and get my blood pumping (Ex: TV on the Radio, Three Days Grace, Nine Inch Nails).

After my last workout, I realized I need some new music to add to my list and this is where I need help!

So tell me, what are your favorite songs to work out to?

To dance to?

Angry songs work too!

"If I Have To Love Myself, Tell Me How To Love Me, Whats There To Love About Myself?"

Title: Six Pence None The Richer - "I Can't Catch You"

Well hello there June, how in the world did you get here so fast?

So let's talk serious. About me. & please, whatever you do, don't pity me.

I'm unhappy with myself. I've been unhappy for a long time, mainly with my weight. I'm not talking the normal "I'm a girl & I think I'm fat" kinda thing.

I'm talking about looking in the mirror and never being happy with what I see.

I'm talking about changing my outfit 6 times before going to a party which results in my having a breakdown because nothing looks good.

This has turned into me skipping out on the party because I can't bring myself to leaving the house feeling like I do.

I make comments all the time that seem normal to me. "I'm fat." is the common one. Vito hates it. The other night he finally sat down and said things to me that I needed to hear.

That he loves me for who I am. That I'm beautiful inside and outside. That he doesn't think I'm fat. All the things boyfriends are suppose to say. But there was more.

He told me that he loved me more than anything but even that wasn't enough to make up for the love I needed to give myself. He told me I needed to love me. That if my weight was a problem for me and standing between me loving myself, it was time to do something about it.

He's nothing but right. I complain and hate and exude laziness, but it is only my fault and mine alone that I am not taking steps towards changing it.

Today I've decided it's a good day to start a healthier lifestyle. I've started tracking my calories again, reminding myself to keep chugging that water, and I am going to the gym after work. I'm not changing everything at once but I'm going to start incorporating small changes. & that starts today.

Will it be hard?

No doubt.

Will I fall down?

Often.

Will I get back up and keep going?

Yes.