"Why Does It Always Rain On Me?"

It's raining today. Personally, I love the rain. It is peaceful, soothing to listen to. Somedays I enjoy the break from the sun. Today, not so much..

I'm convinced that rain brings out 2 things:

slugs

and idiots.

First I went to McDonald's to get lunch (which i do VERY rarely but we had no lunch food in the house to bring, ugh) and while I'm paying I hear someone inside yelling at the manager because she wants to go to break... whatever. I drive to the next window to pick up my food and I get the bright and sunny, happy McDonald's employee who was formly yelling, now handing me my food. Doesn't say hi, I thank her for my food, she stares at my 4 eyes and I think she sees 324. I check my bag and there were chicken nuggets instead of my fish sandwich. I waited a while too get someone's attention and here walks over happy McD's worker back to the window. I tell her I received chicken nuggets and I ordered a fish sandwich. Well wouldn't you know, by the look she gave me, I must have been the one at fault for this so I secretly switched them from my car... She asked to see my receipt (?!) and then walks away from the window and starts yelling at her manager again.. Finally 3 mins later she brings back my bag and shuts the window. No thanks, no sorry for the mess up.. No, just shuts the window. Pardon me for wanting to eat while you get paid to yell at people.. ugh...

On my way back to work, I almost got hit. I was waiting to make a turn and someone behind me decided he should turn first. That's right, he tried to go AROUND me in the OTHER lane. Makes sense? Totally.. I'm contemplating avoiding all people for the rest of the day, or until the sun comes back out.

Happy Friday!

xoxox

Twilol

Because my post this morning was down and sad, here is something that makes me giggle.

Loves me some Edward, he always brightens the day!

xoxox

"Pray for me, patience wait for me"

Today, well it's a blah day. Ever have one of those days where you wake up and you just know? Just know that today would be better spent in bed with the covers pulled over your head? Or when you stop to get coffee and drive right past the window and have to back up while someone is yelling at you that you missed her? The first thing you hear at work instead of "good morning" is "we have a crisis"? Yeah, it's one of THOSE days... Last night was a bad night and it just didn't stop.

So hands down, my biggest flaw? Patience, or the lack there of. I lack the ability to be patient. I'm one of those people who hates traffic, hates lines, hates waiting for anything, embraces her road rage, tries to lose weight and when it doesn't fall off in ten pound increments in the first 2 weeks gives up. I need instant gratification. Not seeing instant results drives me nuts because I'm too impatient to stick to something. I'm the kid who tries things once and if I do not get it the first time around, gives up. Good trait? Absolutely not. I know I do it, I accept it and move on.

So here I am, 22 years old. Young? Old? You be the judge. I still live at home with my mom and Vito. I hate it. Hands down, hate it. I dream of decorating houses and painting walls and walking around my house, singing at the top of my lungs and no one is there. But that isn't reality. I still live with my mommy. *Sigh* With school, working full time is now not an option at my job. Not that working full time and going to school full time was ever fun or enjoyable, but it was something I could do so I did. Now that both Vito & I will be working part time and going to school full time we are stuck. Would I love to move out? In an instant. Now is the best flipping time to buy a house. Seriously. Will we move out? No... Does this bother me? More than you'll ever know.

Vito saves money. He worries there will be some sort of emergency and need a whole bunch of money. I like the idea of having a safety net but I think he worries too much and puts too much back. I'm impatient. I want to move out, I want to be engaged and have the wedding of my dreams. He wants to stay until we have real jobs (about 2 years away) and would marry me tomorrow at the court house if I said yes.

We got into a big disagreement last night over it again. I think he doesn't care how unhappy I am at home, he thinks I don't care what he says. It's ugly, and tiring, and monotonous. Could we move out? Maybe. Would we be living paycheck to paycheck? Yes. Would we enjoy ourselves? I have no idea.

Life sucks sometimes. These are the days where I wish I had more patience.

Pet Peeve

Oh I have so many. While driving home from NYC on Sunday, us girls asked a whole bunch of questions and one was our biggest pet peeve. Hard question right? At least for me. Apparently I'm just easily bothered by stupid things. But today I realized, while blog searching, another pet peeve.

I despise when there are a series of movies and they replace actors/actresses half way through the series. This was brought up when by this:

Switches to:

Why? Seriously. I understand there is a whole story I don't know and will never know.. but I hate it.

I am a huge twilight fan, so needless to say, like most other twilight fans, I am not a happy camper.

Book Review: My Sister's Keeper

My best friend, A, let me borrow this book from her last Saturday and I finished it by Thursday. This book kept you tied in the whole time, waiting to see what was going to happen yet. It pulls at every heart string possible. I liked how throughout the book, you saw things from every character's point of view. Not only did you see the present situation, there were many stories from the children's childhood, helping pave the way for the rest of the story.

The gist of the story, without giving too much away is a little girl, Anna, who is 13 files a lawsuit against her parents for medical emancipation so she does not have to give a kidney to her sister, Kate, who is 16 and dying from a rare form of leukemia. Kate was diagnosed when she was 2 and their parents created a designer baby, Anna, to donate cord blood to keep Kate alive. Over the 13 years, Anna has donated in many other ways and she is ready to live her own life, not centered around saving Kate.

It is a very sad and touching story. Vito & I went and saw the movie over the weekend. If you see the movie, read the book: the ending is completely different.

Overall, I liked it,even though it was at times heart breaking. I'd definitely recommend it, just have a box of tissues near by.

"Hey There Delilah, What's It Like In New York City?"

Title: Plain White T's - "Hey There Delilah"

This time tomorrow I will be wondering the streets of NYC with 3 lovely ladies and I can't wait. I've only ever been there in December for a day trip so going for an entire weekend not havIng to be bundled in huge coats.

I'll be updating all about it when I get back on Sunday!

xoxox

Awesomeness

Coolest wedding video I've seen in a long time.

Wish Wednesday

One day, I would love to have a hot tub that flows into the pool... better yet enclosed like this so I can swim all year round. Beautiful, love it! Mmm, I'm off to dream.

"I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there through it all"

Title: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: Your Guardian Angel

Today, six years ago, everything in my life changed. Six years ago at this very moment, I was playing the waiting game. Scared, nervous, anxious, excited. Who knew that on July 21st, 2003 the best thing that has ever been in my life would be born? Not me. Today is my niece's 6th birthday. 6 already? I can't believe it, it brings tears to my eyes thinking about it. This little girl won my heart over when things in my life were unstable and scary. She single handedly saved my life before she knew how to talk. I am lucky enough to have seen her grow from an infant into this little girl, heading for 1st grade, thinking she is 16.

When she was born, I was living with my sister that summer to escape some of my problems. If my mom would have let me, I would have moved in there, but she made me come home at the end of the summer, but in the last 2 months, I was there to help around the house with my niece. I was there giving midnight feedings, and rocking her to sleep. It might not have always been a glamourous job, but I wouldn't have traded it for anything.

The day she said "Sessa" was a wonderful day for me. Knowing she knew who I was, well that feelings is indescribable. Now, she still calls me Essa even though she can pronounce my whole name by this point. I secretly hope she always calls me Essa. Something about having a special name, it warms my heart. Nothing makes my day better than her hugs and kisses.

I almost moved once, far away to be with Vito. She was only 3 at the time and she didn't know. We went to Rita's one night and as I was carrying her, she put her arms around my neck and looked up at the sky and told me "Essa, if you ever go away, I'll go to the stars and find you." I didn't move away, I couldn't. Thinking that this little girl would miss me, knowing I'd be missing out on her growing up, it crushed me and I changed my plans for her.

I see her every week now, and if I don't I miss her like crazy. If Vito didn't absolutely adore her, I wouldn't be able to be with him. The moment he melted my heart was the day he sat in her room, with her in his arms, reading her a book. He put his head on top of hers and kissed her head. I cried.

6 years of memories, and so many more to go. I can not wait to see what is in store for her in her life. I'm so excited, but so sad. I feel like I blinked and she is grown. I do not look forward to the day when she doesn't think hanging out with her aunt is cool anymore, where she doesn't look forward to crawling up on my lap and snuggling with me, calling herself my cuddle bug.

Today I celebrate the life of the best thing in this world.

I love you MRD, more than you'll ever know.

If you never did, you should! These things are fun and fun is good!

Title: Dr Suess

Let's revisit my goals from last week (those crossed off are completed):

Goals for the week (7/13-7/19):

Buy new Daughtry CD and place on repeat until I know all the songs.

*I bought the CD, but I do not know all the lyrics yet. No worries, I will soon!*

Organize all my clothing (Have I mentioned I hate putting away clothes? I require a large walk-in closet in my future house..).

*Still procrastinating on this...*

Find new recipe to use home grown peaches I got yesterday.

*Made peach smoothies for my niece and I.*

Finish getting our 80s costumes ready for Saturday.

*Got most of it, but did not go to party.*

Work out 3 times this week.

*Made it to the gym 3 times, go me!*

Buy birthday present.

*Giving money/printed pics.*

Goals for this week (7/20-7/26):

-Organize all my clothing

-Wrap niece's birthday presents

-Pack for NYC

-Send paper work in for school

-Figure out how much books are going to cost

-Plan friend beach trip

-Start creating budget for fall

-Enjoy girl's weekend in NYC

I'd rather die than eat these...

I love food, seriously (welcome to the reason I'm dieting!). But there are foods I wouldn't touch. Welcome to my top ten list!

1.)

Cupcheese.

This stuff is so gross I can't even find an image of it. Maybe no one but my mom eats it. This woman gets in the mood for it every so often and buys a little container of it and spreads it on bologna.

The contents of her Kleenex will resemble cupcheese. Seriously, it's yellow and gross. There are not many cheeses I would pass up, but this stuff makes me gag.

2.)

Onions

Hate them. Disgusting. Raw, cooked, small pieces, large pieces. Yuck! I'm the girl who drains her pre-made jars of spaghetti sauce because they have tiny pieces of onions in it and if it is not drained, I will picked through/spit them out.

3.)

Eggs. Not just any eggs, dippy eggs.

Ew. Seriously. Gooey middles? That's so gross. People dipping their toast in it, gag-worthy.

4.)

Beef Stew

I had a bad experience with sickness. I hate even looking at it...

5.)

Brussels Sprouts

I spent many hours after dinner growing up sitting at the table by myself because I would not eat these. Ewwwww.

6.)

Stuffed Peppers

These were made so often in my house growing up I can't stand them. I hate cooked peppers, stuffed or not.

7.)

Bread & Butter Pickles

LOVE pickles, could eat them all the time. I have many fond memories eating giant dill pickles with my sister. Bread & Butter? Disgusting.

8.)

Strawberry hard candy things (I don't know the real name!)

I love ALMOST all things strawberry. This is the exception. It is cute, but an impostor. The liquid inside is nasty! Ewwww!

9.)

"_____" salad

This can include: Macaroni salad, ham salad, chicken salad, potato salad, creamy pasta salad

Salads that are expectable: Tuna salad (without weird things in it. Tuna, miracle whip/mayo, and seasoning. Nothing else. Period.), seafood salad, a very rare pasta salad with a balsamic dressing kind of a thing, and one kind of dill potato salad that I make. End of story.

10.)

Cooked Carrots

Love carrots. I eat baby carrots almost every week with my lunch at work. Cook them and I will not go near them. They turn into a weird, mushy mess that tastes gross.

Get Healthy: Tool Number 1

Last week I discussed my weight adventures. I wanted to touch on the tools I am using to try to become a healthier me, one that I like too!

First tool: The gym a.k.a the devil's home on earth.

This is something new for me to get into a routine to go to the gym. As a college student, I have a free gym membership to a GORGEOUS gym. This place has a pool, indoor racquet ball, rock climbing walls, in door track, and a weight room over looking the soccer field/ track. Since Vito can go too, this was been our friend this past 2 weeks. Last week we managed to make it there twice, this week it is 3 times. Pretty good don't you think?

My routine at the gym starts with this piece right here.

Guaranteed to make you sweat bullets. I'm up to 20mins on this baby. After the elliptical, I spend 30-40 mins doing weights focusing on abs, arms, and legs with Vito. He's like my trainer. I may or may not have referred to him as the devil himself a time or 2 or 32498. After that I head back to do more cardio for 10-20 mins either on the bike or treadmill,

After I'm done, I'm huffing and puffing and sweaty and smell gross. But at the end of the day, I feel better, I sleep better, and he is proud of me. So am I. Now in the morning when I wake up stiff and it hurts to walk, that is another story. 8)

Wish Wednesday

The Kindle is something I've run across quite recently and has struck a cord with me. I think it is adorable. For someone like me who barely ever reads at home but rather over my lunch or at school or at the gym, it's be so much easier to pick up this and carry it in my purse. Now if only I could swallow that $300.00 price tag...

Does anyone really know what You-Know-Who would or wouldn't do?

I'm going to see this tonight and couldn't be more excited!!!

"It's just another manic Monday..."

Title: The Bangles- "Manic Monday"

Monday, my least favorite day of the week.

First day back to work.

Missing all the fun weekend activities.

Wallowing over the numerous things I did not accomplish.

Knowing there is still 4 more days after today until it is the weekend again.

YUCK.

Goals for the week:

Buy new Daughtry CD and place on repeat until I know all the songs.

Organize all my clothing (Have I mentioned I hate putting away clothes? I require a large walk-in closet in my future house..).

Find new recipe to use home grown peaches I got yesterday.

Finish getting our 80s costumes ready for Saturday.

Work out 3 times this week.

Buy birthday present.

Lots of things to do!

This past weekend was wonderful. Saturday we spent the evening with 2 of our best friends, A (One of my BFF's) & M (Vito's BFF). We ate sushi, drank caffeine, saw "The Proposal", watched the city lights, and ate random food at 3 in the morning. It was perfect, I love them both.

Sunday we cooked family dinner at home, Sis and BIL came over and we had salmon, marinated zucchini, and baked potato. All followed up with fresh fruit salad. Really healthy right? Vito & I went and got ice cream later to balance it out and parked our butts on the couch to watch our 2 Sunday night shows.

And

(These are really 2 of my shows, Vito's loving enough to watch them with me. 8) Told you he's wonderful.

LOLCats

Funniest thing I've seen in a long time!

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

Happy Monday!!!

"When I look at the stars, I feel like myself"

Lyric: Switchfoot- "Stars"

So date night was wonderful last night, even though it didn't go as planned. We went out for dinner at a steakhouse. Yummy steak and rattlesnake bites! MmMmmMmmmmm!! After dinner we went to the bookstore and bought new books to read. After that we headed to the movie theater since I've really wanted to see The Proposal.

This woman is one of my favorite actresses. She is amazing and so beautiful.

Anywho, so we got there at 8 and the next movie didn't start until 10:25. Yuck. No other movies were playing any time soon so we left. I did pick u some jewelry for the 80s party next week. yay. 8)

I was saw that our date night was ending so soon. No fear, Vito fixes everything, as always. We came home and got blankets and then went to the baseball field up the street and laid in the field. We would have been star gazing, but there wasn't any stars, stupid clouds. It was nice, we haven't done this for a few years. It was relaxing and romantic. Loves it lots.

xoxox

You & I can make the entire world jealous

It's FRIDAY!! It doesn't get any more exciting then that. Seriously, only 4 more hours. Can you tell my day is dragging? Just a bit...

Friday nights are usually something I look forward to. It is usually our date night. After so long, we still try to take Friday night, unless other plans come in the way, to ourselves. It's nice. I know we see each other every day since we live together, but it's different ya know? Getting out and not having to worry about cleaning up after dinner makes it better for me. Hehe.

Changing it up keeps things going well, at least in my opinion. I get bored doing the same ol' thing. Date nights remind me of when we first got together. I like

to reminisce on these times.

Our first official going out date was interesting to say the least. haha. Vito picked me up and we went out to dinner at this little Italian Restaurant. It was nothing to spectacular food wise (Read: we haven't been back since) but it was nice. I had never been taken out on a date before, so this experience made me super nervous. After dinner we headed to the bookstore and looked at photography books. Then we headed to the movies. Classic right? Dinner and a movie. Psh, classic would have been seeing a romantic chick-flick. No, we saw High Tension.

Looks like the perfect date movie right? Psh. Right... Except for the fact I wouldn't have been able to count how many times on the way home we muttered "wow that was really messed up." It was a lot. At least the date ended well, with a goodnight kiss.

Tonight, we are not sure what the plan of action is but oh well. As long as we are together and enjoying each other, I don't care where we go. 8)

"Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me"

Title: Pink- "Don't Let Me Get Me"

Hate, such a strong word, but it fits exactly how I feel a

bout this contraption made by the one and only Devil himself.

I'm convinced no one but the devil would make such a torturous device. Now I've never been tiny and skinny or any of those body types that the world seems to glorify. I have curves, lots of them... too many of them. I've always been proud to never be a skinny mini but I could shake it like one. Haha.

(Please excuse horrible picture, I'm trying to motivate myself by posting this. Ugh, PUKE!)

I'm unhealthy when it comes down to it. I like food, a lot more than I like exercise. Not good for you food. Food that is covered in cheese or chocolate or salt or caramel. I'm unhappy with myself. I've gotten to the point where looking in the mirror, I do not like to see the reflection. I am not proud of what has happened to my body. Vito, that blessed man, tells me every day that I am beautiful. He loves my body and I despise it, quite a conundrum isn't it?

With the help of Vito, I'm attempting to lose weight again. It's hard, most days it sucks but it is what needs to be done. I'll get into the different ways I'm attempting it at a later date.

x0x0x

Bring me flowers and talk for hours, I like you, and ohh I like how you make me feel

-Since I'm pretty bad at coming up with titles, I'll either use quotes (which most of the times I do not know the authors for because I collected them YEARS ago sorry) or music lyrics. Enjoy!

-Song Lyric: Hope- "Bring Me Flowers"

Since I introduced myself, I decided I should work on introducing some of the other important people in my life. This post I'll dedicate to my other half, my better half.

What can I say, it's the big ears that had me at hello. Just kidding, Though Mickey is SO fine (so fine he blows my mind ;) , that handsome man to the right has my heart. Vito & I have been dating since April 05', meaning we're working on year 5 already. 5 years? Seriously, that seems like an eternity, but seems like only yesterday.

I meet Vito waaaaay back in August 04' at a mutual friend's birthday party. Lucky me, I was the only girl at said sleep over. Works to s girl's advantage having a man for a best friend, huh? ;) First conversation I ever had with Vito was in the middle of the night, I was sleeping on the floor with my special friend at the time ex (he's another story) and I turned over and I heard "You know, you should never sleep with gum in your mouth. You'll end up with it in your hair." I proceeded to tell him I was too tired to get up so he got me something to spit my gum out in so I did not have to and threw it out for me. He has always taken care of me. <3>

I continued my on again/off again relationship (Read: special friendness) with said ex for a few more months. Suddenly Vito and best friend started to hang out at my house after their band practices. It was fun, I happened to like to flirt with him. All the while, I'm getting ready to go on a music trip (I was a chorus girl! Woot woot!), Vito told me he'd come see me before I left. I was nervous since I had never been alone with him before! The night before I left for my trip, this wonderful man showed up at my door step with a dozen white with pink tipped roses(Pink=fav color which I never told him). This was the first time anyone had brought me flowers. This was the last day of my single life and the first day of our relationship.

Wish Wednesday

Being poor me, there are so many things it wold be nice to splurge money on. I think Wednesdays are a good day to show you some of these things! (Really, I just want to use alliteration in my title! Hehe!)

Meet the Paloma's Nest.

I. Want. One.

The End.

If You Can Make A Girl Laugh, You Can Make Her Do Anything

I figured since I read so many blogs, why not attempt to write one too! It'd make me feel better commenting or something. Well, I hate starting out with first posts. Hi, it's me, Vanessa and I'm going to start a blog so I can ramble about random things. Sounds like fun right? Right. Here's a few things about me..

I'm 22.
I'm going to be a junior in college this fall semester (I'm taking the extended route to college) and I hate it with a strong passion enjoy it.
I work full time during the summer and part time during the school year as a secretary with all men.
I'm in love with Google Reader.
Traveling is my passion.
I have the best boyfriend in the world, whole I'll often complain about, but love with all my heart.
I heart pictures, and you will probably not see a post without them whether I took them or linked them from someone who has talent. 8)

I have plenty other random things to say about myself, because I'm pretty random (at least that is what I am told) but I'll save that for other posts to elaborate on. Anywho, I'm done with this post. Please see this silly gorgeous picture of myself with my hands in Harry Potter's, and yes I'm counting down the days until the movie! Woot Woot!

XoXoX